Where is My Happiness?

Ever felt like you were empty? Ever felt like you were alone, and abandoned? We have all came to a point in life where you just want peace and happiness! Yet it seems like it's so far away! We have to sometimes look at what we are doing, who do we surround ourselves with, what are our priorities and FIX IT! Happiness starts with self, and that is why we have to ask those questions! We can choose what we do, choose our surroundings, and choose what are the most important priorities.

I have learned that we sometimes forget that we make those choices in life, and we have control in most situations. I say "most" because sometimes it isn't in our hands. However, the things that we can control, we have to make the best decisions. How many times have you felt like you are pulled in so many directions? Just recently, I felt like I was pulled in 5 different directions. Kids, school, work, home, family, car, and it was just too much at one time. I had to ask myself, what comes first, and how can I prioritize what needs to be done first. Obviously I love my children dearly and they are always going to come first. I also know that even though they are the highlight of my life, I have to sometimes tell them no. Yes, telling them yes to what they want can get them to be happy and out of my hairs for a second, it isn't always best to give them what they want just because they asked for it. 

My children are a part of my happiness, but I lack happiness in other areas in my life. I want to take off in my desired career, and it seems like that is so far away!!! I need another vehicle, but that has to be put on hold!!! Uggghhh, where is my happiness?

The life of a young mother, and Im not getting any younger. 28 years young, an life continues to keep going no matter what. Where is my happiness, and will I ever find it?? Im hoping sooner than later!!!!

Will I Ever Get a Chance????

I recently finished getting my Associates Degree in Health Care Administration/Medical records and I decided to continue to get my education. Now I am currently on my way to obtaining my Bachelors in Health Care Administration/Health Care Management. It is beyond frustrating because I have been searching and searching for employment with no luck at all. I have done my resume over and over again, and still no luck. Not a email, phone call, text message, mail, not nothing!!! The thing is, I have NO experience in healthcare. However, how will I get any experience if no one wants to give me a chance?

I send off my resume daily, I have made so many profiles with these companies and I still have not heard NOTHING!!!! I am a mother of three, and they are my main reason why I wanted to change, and why I chose to go back to school. Christmas is around the corner, birthdays are back to back and I am just lost of what to do. I am just a frustrated parent with no answers for my children or myself. 

I live in a city where people say that there are so many opportunities, but I seem to somehow look past them(sarcastically). I dont know what I am doing wrong, or what Im not doing enough of.

Not too long ago, I began to ask myself, is education truly the key? I only asked that, because of the dead end I was creeping up on.

I am strong, smart, and driven just to name a few, but I am starting to give up hope. My grades are good, and Im always looking for ways to better this thing I have called LIFE. 

I made this blog not too long ago because I wanted to vent and reach out to others about life, about life that most can relate to. Today, I am writing to do just that, vent and talk about what most are going through. This made me feel a bit better, but I am still lost for answers. 

One day, and one day soon, I pray that I get on here and write about how much I love my new job and my life is changing for the better  for me and my children. Im praying it comes sooner than later.

It's Okay to Say F-It Sometimes..........

It's Okay to NOT Care Anymore

You wake up, get breakfast started, make sure the kids are fed and out the door. Then you have to get yourself together before you head out the door. The day is long and drawn out, and you just want to go home and rest. You finally get home from work and you have about an hour of peace and quiet. The phone is ringing, dishes need to be done, floor needs sweeping and there are a ton of errands that need to be done. Well, sometimes you have to say F-it!!!! Relax and give yourself some ME time. All of those things that need to be done, will be done another time. That friend that keeps calling about her simple problems, don't answer the phone, say.....F-it!!! That friend will eventually get over it, she doesn't take your advice anyway.

What I'm trying to say is, its okay to kick your shoes off and NOT give a hoot for a while. With all of the things we have going on around us, we need those breaks. I say F-it more than a little, and trust me, it feels great!!!! I see that a lot of people try to keep up an image that they are on top of everything, and they make no mistakes. Well, no one is perfect and who are we to judge?? If you feel like taking a break and could care less about an image that wont matter when you hit the dirt, say F-it!!!!! I know that they language can be a little more than necessary, but it just sounds better and there is no harm behind it. This blog is short, just like many of my other blogs, however I hope this helps someone who really NEEDS a break from time to time.

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Why I Write About Teen Pregnancy....

I write to feel better, I write to make others feel better and open their minds to things people know nothing about. I know this can be a subject that everyone may have different feelings about, but Im just speaking from my own experiences. When people think about teen pregnancy, they often think of the negative. Well, the whole situation isn't negative. The only negative part of it, is the sex. I like to tell people to ask themselves, "Why do you think the teens engaged into sex" Was it temptation, was it puppy love, were they missing something in their own personal lives and found it in sex? Everyone has their own stories, and I decided to talk about mine just a little. People are so quick to judge an assume that if a teen is pregnant, she is out of control!!! That may not be the case. We have all done foolish things so no one should judge one another. This blog is only to encourage young people to make better choices, its 100% real, and to assure that they can make it through. Im far from perfect, I just simply want to be heard and give positive advice!!

A Dream......From a REAL Person's Perspective

Each and everyday I strive for the best, trying to maintain a good life for me and mine. I pay bills, go to school, take care of my kids, and take care of home. At the end of the day, where am I, who am I? Those are all of the questions I ask myself after all of the tough things are done. I can never come up with nothing, everything that I say sounds stupid!! "Your strong, your great, your loving and supportive" those all sound great, but are those descriptions who I really am? NO, they are not!! I live pay check to pay check, I hardly get to get myself anything, Im late on a few bills, and Im not doing well in class!! That's the real me, the imperfect person, and I love that about me!!! I dont want to live a DREAM of perfection.....I want to be ME!!! Those bills are late, those checks are short, not doing well in class, and I hardly buy myself anything....it's okay!! Things will get better, and Im LOVING me through it all!!!

Temptation Can Bite You in the_______(short blog)

Have you ever wanted  something soooo bad and you would do anything to get it??? Even though you know it's no good for you? You try so hard to forget it, ignore it, and dislike it but all of that doesn't work? You end up falling for it chasing it, and everything goes all bad!! Well everyone has been in that situation and you know what I have learned? Never make the same mistake twice. When there is something you want and you know its bad for you, drop everything and RUUUNNN!!!! It's almost like trying to figure out what is the difference between a want and a need. We as human beings tend to go after what we really dont need. Whether it's a person, or something materialistic, we have to ask ourselves, "Is it worth it?"
For a long time I would lust after my kids father, and I kept getting hurt in the end. I made a huge mistake thinking that my lust for him was actually love and it wasn't. Point is, if what you "want" so very badly hurts you over and over again, you dont need it. Take it back, let it go, throw it away and trust me things will get better from that point on. Don't be fooled!!! Think with your brain sometimes and NOT your HEART!!!